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| Treasurehntr Registered user Username: Treasurehntr Post Number: 10 Registered: 7-2007 |
I was 18 and voraciously devouring all the EGW material I could get my hands on. I would read multiple books at a time, study my sabbath school lesson, and attend all the meetings I could. I was a fifth gen Adventist and felt so blessed that we had the truth. Sure some thing troubled me, I just thought thats what it meant to be a christian and put it away. Actually I was in total fear of Gods rejection. To make things worse, as a good Adventist I was isolated into doing only SDA approved things. One night I woke from a terrible nightmare in a horrible cold sweat. I dreamt i was in the middle of a storm and that the storm represented Gods displeasure with me. I looked into a dark, cloudy, stormfilled sky and saw two piercing eyes looking on me with anger. The clouds parted just enough that I could make a face out. Guess what, it was not God looking on me, it was Ellen White. I'm 41 now and I still don't know if that dream was my own infected psyche or from another source. The only thing I can say for sure is that no denomination that brings that kind of raw terror is from God. Until now, the only person I have mentioned this to is my brother. I now know that I'm not alone, I love the Lord and know that he loves me. I now have some peace. I also finally believe that God heals. I hope I don't run anyone off with my rant. Ken | ||
| Flyinglady Registered user Username: Flyinglady Post Number: 3934 Registered: 3-2004  |
Ken, You are not the only one who had night mares. I used to dream Satan was trying to contact me. God has stopped those dreams and they have been stopped for a very long time. God has you in his hands now and will not let go of youl He is so awesome. Diana | ||
| River Registered user Username: River Post Number: 997 Registered: 9-2006  |
Ken, At least you were asleep, I have nightmares about her in the daytime!! I think you will feel right at home here, I get a vision of a shriveled up, bitter old woman with a big black wart on her nose the size of a dime, hair in a big bun and a drab Grey dress pointing her gnarled finger at people, when I first seen the real spirit behind Adventism I almost lost my lunch and I ain't kiddin you. It would be extremely difficult to run anybody off of here because of a rant or two, most of us been there, so you go ahead and get it off your chest. I'm glad you told us about it, it keeps us from feeling like we are going nuts or something. At least for me it does, I might get ragged a little for speaking for all the folks so I will qualify my statement. River | ||
| Colleentinker Registered user Username: Colleentinker Post Number: 6220 Registered: 12-2003  |
Ken, thanks for sharing your dream. Wow. I believe every word you wrote, and no matter the specific source of your dream, it does reveal the source of Adventism. It was not God. Colleen | ||
| Jorgfe Registered user Username: Jorgfe Post Number: 350 Registered: 11-2005 |
Perhaps this author was the source of your nightmare:
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| River Registered user Username: River Post Number: 1001 Registered: 9-2006 |
Do ya think Gilbert? | ||
| Colleentinker Registered user Username: Colleentinker Post Number: 6226 Registered: 12-2003 |
Unbelievable. Sometimes it's almost embarrassing to really admit the "stuff" I ignored yet tacitly accepted. It's no wonder we were embarrassed to admit to "outsiders" that we "had a prophet". What a prophet...! No wonder so many of us had nightmares, insomnia, chronic fear, persistent anxiety... Praise Jesus He redeems the past. Colleen | ||
| Reb Registered user Username: Reb Post Number: 300 Registered: 5-2007 |
I had trouble sleeping all of the years I was an Adventist. Now I sleep like a baby. Wonder why? |
